images (11)The life events of a content creator for a Park City SEO company are what he uses for inspiration. For example, when I was a kid I had a very low self esteem. In fact, I once saw a psychologist and I told him I have a low self esteem. He said to me, “Yeah, a lot of losers have that problem.”

Now, to a person with low self esteem, hearing what he said is challenging. What we want to hear is, “No, you’re a good person. People like you.” But I have found hearing those platitudes will not get rid of low self esteem. To solve the problem of low self esteem a person has to challenge himself because low self esteem is an internal problem not external.

In the third grade my teacher put together a play of Hansel and Gretel and everyone could audition for a role. This made me excited. I pictured myself on stage in front of a captive audience. I pictured myself taking my bow to thunderous applause. As the day for the audition approached I felt myself becoming more and more excited.

My best friend at the time named Robbie and I showed up to the auditions. Neither one of us was very good at sports. We fell into that geeky, nerdy, wimpy category but we were also considered to be the class clowns. So something like this seemed like an opportunity where we could shine.

Everyone who auditioned recited the same lines. I recall these lines were the dialog of some magician rabbit character named Hare Hare. “Thank you, thank you ladies and gentlemen. My name is Hare Hare,” he said. I don’t remember the rest of the dialog. Based on this recitation my teacher would determine who would get which role. She said she would announce this the next day.

That night I could hardly sleep. I couldn’t wait to hear her say which role I had been assigned. I thought my chances were good to get the lead role of Hansel but I would be satisfied with a lesser role. I just wanted to get up in front of an audience and perform.

The next day the teacher read who got which roles. My heart was pumping in my chest with anticipation. The first name she read was my best friend Robbie who got the role of Hansel. I was okay with this. Robbie and I were similar kids. I was thinking If he got the lead male role then I was sure to get a significant lesser role.

But as she continued down the list and the roles became smaller and less significant. I did not even get the role of Hare Hare. My heart began to sink. Finally she stated the role she had assigned to me.

It was “Background Tree” in scene three. Let me repeat, background tree in scene three.

In this role I was to hold a cardboard cutout of a tree with a hole for my face to stick through. My role was to stand behind three other trees… who had speaking roles (a fact which I found to be particularly humiliating).

When I realized the full impact of this situation my heart hit the floor. It was clear to me that this role was designed for a kid my teacher thought had no talent. 

Now don’t get me wrong. I suppose the world needs background trees just like the world needs ditch diggers.

Actually no, I take that back. The world needs ditch diggers. I think the world would do just fine without background trees (unless of course that background tree becomes a Park City SEO content creator).

I remember crying myself to sleep that night. In my mind, not only was this specific situation a humiliation. But it seemed indicative of a much larger conspiracy at work. It seemed to me that the whole world was constantly trying to humiliate me and this was just one more example.

This goes to the heart of the self esteem issue. Looking back on it I see it clearly. I had low self esteem because I was allowing other people to define who I was. They told me I was a background tree and I accepted it.

Now I’m not trying to be judgmental of my former self. In fact I look back on that lost little kid with great compassion. But that’s not the point. The point is for me to solve the problem of low self esteem I need to define who I am despite what other people say. That’s easier said than done but it’s true.

LOW SELF ESTEEM AND PARK CITY SEO

I remember telling that psychologist, “The whole world wants to humiliate me.”  He said to me, “That’s not true. Most of the world doesn’t even know you. Nor do they know that some day you will become a Park City SEO content creator.
I didn’t get it back then but I think I get it now. I don’t think he was trying to humiliate me. I think he was trying to show me that if I was only looking to find my self worth from other people then I was never going to find it. This is true even if I was given the role of Hansel instead of the background tree. I have to be the source of my own self worth. To put it another way, in order for them to make me a background tree I have to agree with them. 

But more to the point of this blog post, this experience has stuck with me all these years and once again it has proven useful for the purposes of Park City SEO and content creation.